“Morality is achieved through the awareness of self and society, not religion. Being religious doesn’t make you moral, and not being religious doesn’t make you immoral. Every person has the conscious ability to choose what they will or won’t do and whether their action is socially and/or morally right or wrong. Morality is Mortality.”
—Me
April 2012
Starting Anew
A few weeks ago my boss invited me to a group for weightloss. It’s a challenge group, and my boss just happens to be a beachbody coach. Instead of making my excuses, I bucked up and bought a program. Today is day 5 of the challenge, day 5 of starting a healthier me.
I want to be confident in myself. I want to walk down the street and know people are staring at me because I’m beautiful, not because I’m overweight. When I’m doing yoga I want to be able to fold over completely instead of being stopped because my stomach and breasts are too big. I want to love myself, and I am sure as hell trying.
I’ve been overweight for most of my life. My senior year of high school I was down to a size 8/10 pant, could wear all the adorable goth clothes I wanted, and looked damn fine. After I graduated and moved away, I gained weight - literally almost 100 lbs in 4 years (though I’ve actually been at a consistent weight for the last year 1/2 or so).
I’m sick of it. It’s time I take a stand for myself, think ofmefor once.
My best friend decided that she would join me on my path to loosing weight. We’ve decided that by Halloween, if/when we’ve lost half of our goal, we’ll get a tattoo together, a very specific tattoo that has many meanings for us - something personal. I’m going to work my ass off for that, because it’s possibly the best idea we’ve ever had.
This isn’t just a weightloss challenge to me - this a a total life make over. Everything I learn from this experience I will put into my life as well as my eating and exercising habits. Here a few major things I’ve learned so far:
- If you know something is unhealthy for you, you shouldn’t eat it.
- You can’t change yourself if you don’t work for it.
- It didn’t take 1 day to gain the weight, it won’t take 1 day to lose it.
- You’re the only person who can change you.
I’m striving to become one with myself and with the world around me.
I see the spirit in your Earthly form.
Namaste ☮
“But if you do not find an intelligent companion, a wise and well-behaved person going the same way as yourself, then go on your way alone, like a king abandoning a conquered kingdom, or like a great elephant in the deep forest.”
—Buddha
